Separated for 2 months... ice is thawing a little

[Choosing_Life]

Interestingly, wife called and left an affectionate message on my voicemail yesterday afternoon. So funny, because I was feeling really pessimistic. I guess I need to keep working on being optimistic... not worrying so much. The only way I have been able to do that so far is just to ask myself, what would an optimistic person do in this situation? How would they feel? Michelle's simple equation "Crisis=Opportunity" helps as well.

Otherwise, I am working on making myself happy. Last night I made myself dinner (OK, slight exaggeration there, I heated up a couple veggie burgers and had them on bread with some tahini dressing and a beer; but I did spend some time online finding things to cook for the next time the kids are at my place), took care of some bills, did some laundry, put some new music on my mp3 player, called my kids and said goodnight to them (they were way too busy playing with the cousins at G'ma's house to want to talk to me, which is fine... I am glad they were having a good time!), played Xbox for a little while (doesn't hold my attention like it used to), and then practiced the piano until I was too tired to stay awake. I can almost play a two-handed version of "Jingle Bells" now, but the last couple measures keep tripping me up. I bet I'll get it today, though. Yesterday afternoon I ran two miles as well... I have found that exercise is the key to fighting depression (for me, anyway). So, all in all, a fairly full and rewarding day. I went to bed feeling pleasantly tired, instead of all depressed and anxious.

Today I am going over to a friend's Christmas gathering to get some people time in and enjoy the holiday. One thing for which I am thankful to my wife is helping me get over my defensive attitude (I'm Jewish) toward the Christian holidays. I actually enjoy Christmas now that I don't feel so threatened by it. I think I'll tell her that the next time she calls (yep, the next time SHE calls... I'm sticking with my 180 on the pursuit thing).

Everyone patient enough to read this, please have a blessed day and a Merry Christmas! Peace on Earth, World Without End, Amen!