Hey everyone.. I had a lovely day with my family, really special. My lovely millionaire cousin said I could stay anytime, for as long as I like, or even go live with him in London as his housemate!! He has a NICE house..the mortgage is �8k a month! Guessing he wouldnt charge me rent, lol! Hmm, maybe I will hey...
So a while ago, I shopped for a present for my ex, but it was hard, I finally setted on something, a book, but didnt buy it, as I wasnt expecting to hear from him. (I still dont know if I should get him something ?)
Anyway, so I opened his gift today...he had bought me...the exact same book I was going to buy him!! He had also slotted inside it 3 CDs...they were ones that he bought back when we were hanging out all the time May/June and he promised to copy them for me...but he didnt and hadnt mentioned it since.
So he remembered which albums I would like and was missing, from like 6 months or more ago and got me the book, which was a great choice for me also. I was pretty stunned. I dont know what it means, but it made me think, like John said.. this person really knows me. The unaminous opinion was.. this isnt guilt.
My family asked separately today what he had got me, when I showed them they each said "Hmm...he's really put some thought into that". Thats what I thought too.
Then I remembered, he had suddenly bought up this book in the car a month ago when chatting to me, I remember as he mentioned it out the blue then changed subjects...so he DIDNT just rush out and buy me a gift last week... he had thought about it and taken the trouble to 'fish' to see if I already had it.
Dont know what it means, but I was very touched. Didnt get sad, just felt grateful. BUT he didnt contact me today, which is a shame, but then its not surprising and I wasnt expecting him to.
Also touching.. his oldest BMF wife texted me today to say they send me love..and she wants to phone me tommorow, so thats nice, its like I'm still part of my old life, even if he is now with someone else !
Thinking of everyone out there.. battling on.. today wasnt bad though, it was nice even. But like Kalni said...maybe I just need to wake up and face reality, he IS with someone else, afterall.
I had to tell you this. The supermarket I work at part-time just reset the entire store and changed a lot of the items on stock. We added an entire "British" section. We have quite a number of "transplants" here since there are several multi-national companies in our fair city. Last night I was straightening up that section and right there in front of me was........MARMITE!!!!!! I don't have to drive all the way to Trader Joe's to get it! Although, I would love to go up there anyway. I don't know when I'll buy it and try it (since it's nearly $6 for a tiny jar) but I promise I will soon.
Hope you had a marvelous day today!
T19 M15 S19 XH47 M43 bomb12/4/07 PA5/07 S12/26/07 D final 11/17/08 Back together with no defined R 05/2010 confused....to say the least!!!
Interesting update re: the presents. Confusing to know what this is about...confusing to figure out what the boundaries are / should be given your present sitch. Seems like another example of him wanting to maintain some kind of connection with you. You are important to him, there is no doubt about it. I guess the tough part here is that being important to someone and that person being able to bring something to the table emotionally are different though. That's the difficult part for me to (humbly try and) accept in my sitch.
I was thinking of you and wanted to stop in and see how you're doing today. Hope you're doing okay and look forward to hearing your news when you have a chance.
Ha Michelle...whats that from "make it so!?". Thanks girls for your hugs and wishes. Mishka..Marmite is lush!! Thanks Purr too for checking in with me, yes, I do believe he cares deeply for me.
So I met all my parents friends again this year.. the ladies took me aside seperately and each said things like, how they feel for me, but how elfin I looked, how beautiful, how young, how funny and lovely I was etc, nearly made me cry !! They know the whole sitch. I said, yes, maybe he will regret it one day hey, they said, who cares if he will or wont! You are a great catch...They all said to my parents I looked 27! So I felt pretty special alright, very touching.
I am still in my hometown, I dont know if he is too. I'm going out for drinks tommorow with his oldest BMF wife for a 'chat' she said. This may be innocuous, or she may have met Helen and have something to say about it! Shes been busy though, so I dont know if she's met her, or even wants to. Shes a wise, lovely person and is very loyal to me. It will be great to see her, so I may have some ex-related gossip! I have to admit, I like to hear bits, from her, and Cher... but thats just me!
So it seems, I loved him with all my heart, but he left me for a woman he met at work! She is younger and it would seem, not 'as nice' as me, but the reasons he left me for her are probably complex. I have had no thoughts to contact him. I would though, warmly accept contact from him if he contacts me.
I was so touched and chuffed to get that present from him, neverlone a thoughtful one and a long phonecall too. But NC at all over the Christmas period has about finished me off! Its like, ok, I get it now, you dont want me. You have made your choice, made it clear to me and gone public with it.
I do wish I had asked him before August, when we were in so much contact, if he wanted to try again and if not, why not. Now, its too late for those conversations. I wonder if he had a good holiday too !??
Keep it going!!