Time for ME to change...scared as hell...

[theotherhalf]

Snodderly I do know how to not react. Just not very good at it. Last Friday night when he called he tried so very hard to entice me into an argument. Didn't work. He vented, I let him and would not engage in any dispute. I did as you say, kept my mouth shut and changed the subjects. Why it worked that time and not every time I don't know. EVERY single time he does something or says something that is hurtful, intentional, and/or out of character I am still to this day shaking my head in disbelief that this is my H. Then I react, I suppose thinking that I will say or do something that will finally wake him up. I have to give it up don't I?

Well it is Christmas eve. I worked till noon, ran some errands now I am home. I had planned on taking the girls to Christmas Eve services at church tonight. They have never been. But the weather and the roads are probabaly going to keep us home. I am saying a little prayer today that H will come and spend eve and morning with us but it doesn't look like he will. Not going to let it ruin things for us though. Going to do my best to have a wonderful evening with the girls. Tradition here is that I make a big breakfast tonight. The girls love it.

Wishing you all a Very Merry Christmas! Peace and happiness to all of you.
TOH