I don't know if anyone will be around today but I could use some help.
Things are spiraling downwards at a rapid pace for hubby and I.
We have had two pretty serious arguments over the past few days and are in the middle of another one right now. The way he is dealing with it is making me insane and miserable and I am really questioning if I even want to be with this man anymore. He is infuriating and so immature and I do not know if I can deal with this for the rest of my life.
We are arguing about the same things that brought me to these boards 7 months ago.
1. Common interests (or lack thereof) 2. Family issues (thanks to the holidays!) 3. Time he spends with friends rather than being responsible
I can't do this!
I am BEYOND stressed out right now and he will not do anything to help me out. He is still too busy playing with his stupid little friends to get a freaking job! He has been home for 2 months now and I understand that it is a tough market right now but COME ON! I just recently started applying and already have a job interview lined up. So it's not impossible. He is going to try to get unemployment this week so that we can afford to pay our bills. But that will not help us move out of our places and find somewhere to live together. It's just going to drag this process out.
Ugh.
There is so much to say. We have had a snow/ice storm here for over a week now and I am going crazy being trapped with my parents day in and day out. We are all getting on each others nerves and arguing. So that is not helping at all. And I have not been working and am down to like ten bucks in my bank account and my last paycheck is floating around somewhere because the mail hasn't been delivered in days and even if it did how do I get to the bank? Grr!
It's like everything is hitting me at once and I can't take it anymore. It just seems like it would be better to cut him loose and move on with my own life instead of waiting around for him to get off his lazy ass and do something for us. He claims he is trying to find a job but he has like 2 applications out there. How is that trying? Everyone knows it is a numbers game and you will not get a job with 2 applications.
We argued about that last night and even though the conversation ended well I just don't like it and it's making me angry.
Today we are arguing about family and how it is a "non fixable" issue in his opinion because I "hate his family" and he thinks I am "too stuck on mine" Which is insane because I have been begging him to take me away from them for months now!!! I have offered to move around with the army to be with HIM not THEM. How hard of a concept is that? Ugh!
We have been text arguing this morning and he will not respond to some of my texts and will not take my calls and when I say I am tired of texting he says "then take a break. . ." What an @$$!!!
I'm sorry this is such a negative post for Christmas Eve, believe me I wish it were happy, cheery news. I just need to vent and I have no one here to vent to because even the walls have ears!!!
I'm just sick and tired of being in this position and I see no end in sight. With or without him it appears I am stuck.
Bottom line he is being rude and disrespectful to me and I cannot deal with this for the rest of my life so what am I supposed to do? How do I know when to get rid of him?
