Making my own good karma!!

[Silent Chrleader]

Hi, Thinking.

Thanks for your post. Since I gave pretty much the "whole" story in my reply to "25years" above, I won't go into details of time here. But, I too definitely struggle with patience! It's my absolute biggest challenge!!!! I even got a tatoo on my shoulder of the Chinese Konji symbol for patience in hopes that it would help my karma in that direction (but I can't say that it's helped much).

I envy you that your H is still living in the home. On the other hand, I think it has been helpful for me and him that we are living apart (because, again, I have NO patience!). It's been 9 months since the first bomb for me, but it feels like a millenium!!

Just in the past week since the "talk" on the 15th, I have felt much more detatched and that is a very good feeling, although that's scary too. My sister tells me that it's a process and you have to go through it (can't go over it, can't go under it.....). You can't miss any steps either or you end up going back and doing it again. But, somebody here on the boards once told me that it's the broken bone that has been mended properly that is stronger than all the bone around the break. I try to hold onto those thoughts.

Oh, and look up "Chrldr" on the alt. I am the one with the really weird last name that looks like it's missing a few vowels.