Still Supportive but very distant

[JWS]

Hey guys I know I have not been around but heres a quick update and a last min Christmas thought.

I was convinced that I had moved on and did not love her was based mainly on me thinking she was cheating. We decided to get D and I am moving to Japan in two weeks for three years. We signed D papers the other day and were going to turn them in today. We can file in two states we choose the one without the waiting period.

After signing we started to talk and we cleared the air between us. She apologized for all the [censored] she put me though and said she still loves me. And I did the same. Seeing her in this light has shown me that I am not over her, but we all knew that already.

At the same time she knows that she does not have the capacity for a R with any one right now. She does not want anyone else but she does not want me either.

Since agreeing to the divorce and moving on I have started dating again and know how great it is to be around someone who truly appreciates you, and I don’t want to go back to nothing.

If she truly does love me and wants to really make a go at being friend’s maybe it’s time for More Dbing.

Right now she is pondering whether or not to turn in the papers or file in the other state where we would have a 6 month waiting period giving us time to figure it out.

I will be in Japan she will be in Law school, it may be unrealistic but who knows. We also both know that if it is ment to be the D will not stop that and if it is not the staying M wont either.

I do love her but I am worried that these feelings are more just normal with signing papers at Christmas time while moving out of the country. It would seem with all that going on a little break to ponder the decision is wise.

Merry Christmas all I wish you all the very Best!!!!!!!!!!