Christmas 2008: There have been so many changes in the last year. I have finally come to a place of peace, knowing that I am on the right path.
So for this year, I would just like to wish all of you a Merry Christmas, and know that everyone on this board (whether I know your names or not...) is in my prayers. I feel very blessed to encounter such a wonderful bunch of people who have helped me, and that I have had the privilege of helping, get through some of the most difficult times in our lives. To each and everyone Merry Christmas. Keep the faith, pray, and remember we are all blessed in one way or another.
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
Merry Christmas Michelle!!! I hope this New Year finds you much happiness! Love to you and your family...Christine
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
Merry Christmas Ellie and Michelle: It was a peaceful quiet day, and most enjoyed by D12 and me. No sign of H, but did talk to him yesterday. Right now he is consumed by the issues of his job to the point where that is all he thinks about, so I am just saying a silent prayer that it works out.
Went to take D12 to see Twilight yesterday, special fx were great but the story line...well...just a little weak. But it was fun to just get out.
Now we re going to brave the mall...
God help us....
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
Your not kidding!!! Actually, yesterday it was not too bad. I think it helped that D12 and I walked in knowing exactly what we were looking for. Still, it took a good three hours before we made it out alive...I can't complain to much though...the sales were great and I actually still have money left on my giftcard to get another pair of pants!!!
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
So today is a day when I just really want to vent.
I am sick to death of this crap. Oh, I realize this has nothing to do w/ me, and H is concerned right now he is going to have no job at the end of the year. So lets get that out of the way.
I have been dealing with this shiznit for almost 15 months now. The up and down, friendliness then pull back. Lately it seems that H and I communicate very well for a week, maybe two, and then all of a sudden I do not hear squat. Calls go unanswered. Texts go unanswered. I don't do it all the time, but I am trying to get business stuff out of the way so I can file my taxes. And nothing. Nada.
And then, when he does call, if I am not READILY IMMEDIATELY available, he calls two, three, four times in a row, like I am supposed to be sitting by the phone waiting for him. Uh...no...I do have a life. He wants me to be there when he needs me to. Fine, I can accept that, but WTF? I mean, can't he understand that THIS IS WHAT HE WANTED!!!!! I didn't want this. I wanted to be a good wife. I still want to be a good wife. But dammit, that does not mean that I should have to be a good wife just when he needs it!!!! AHHHHH!!!!!
I can picture it. I am standing in front of him, and can hear the resounding slap of my hand against the back of his head. No, I am not violent, but man it would feel good right now, maybe to knock some fargin' sense into his thick skull. I would like to get the business card of a local proctologist just to give it to him with a recommendation that he get his head out of his butt.
I am tired of this crap. I love him, but when is enough enough? I know only I can answer that. But I also have to say that the anger that is starting to seep in feels better than the stupid, depressive melancholy that I have been feeling.
Okay, vent over....
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
we re going to brave the mall...
