Good morning everyone. It is not quite 7:00 A.M. on Christmas Eve. Wow! I can't believe how fast this year has gone by. I plan to do more journaling on my thread this year b/c I am going to set some goals for myself and maybe you all will hold me accountable.....LOL. I need to be accountable to somebody in order to keep me motivated. My health is not as good as it should be and the doctor is really concern about me getting this weight off. I am embarrassed to say this, but after I stopped contacting the OM, and as my health declined, I went into a "funk" as Tawnya would say, and all I could do was sit around and not get any exercise. Since I don't smoke or drink......well, guess what I turn to? Food! So, I have packed on the pounds in the past two years. My family is very concerned about my health and my body has been talking to me, so I know I need to listen and take heed. This is my area of weakness. Remember me telling some of you that everyone has an area of strength and an area of weakness? Well, this is my weakness. I turn to food when I am sad, lonely, depressed, bored.....all the negative emotions makes me want to eat. I eat at times of celebration, also, but you know, when I am excited or very happy.....I don't have that "need" to constantly be munching on something. Well, enough about that.
I know it isn't New Year's Day yet when resolutions are usually made....or is that New Year's Eve? At any rate, I am making an early one beginning today. I resolve to be the best I can be and do the best I can do under whatever circumstances come my way For those of you that know my health problems, you will understand that is a big hunk that I just bit off. Like Monday and Tuesday, I did nothing but lie around b/c the Fibromyalgia was bad and I was trying to save all my energy for Christmas Eve. That is our big day on my side of the family and then tommorow will be the other side of the family. The out-laws.....er.....I mean, the In-laws. (Just kidding)
I know this is going to be a very hard time for so many of you. I have many of you that I know by name on my heart today and have prayed for you and called your names before the Lord, and those I can't remember or don't actually know yet.....I still ask God to help you through this time. I would think it would be the most difficult time of the year to face a S or a pending D. Those of you I have met on here and have chatted with......you are stronger than you give yourself credit for and I know that you can do it. I see you getting stronger with each post you write. There are so many of you that I think of as my adopted children (and please don't take that as an insult by calling you children....it is symbolic) b/c I take you and your stitch into my heart. There are only a few things that can hurt more than splitting up a family. But, there are some things that are actually worse.....we just won't get into that b/c it is too depressing here on Christmas Eve. The point I want to make is that life does go on even if at this moment some of you feel like it has stopped. I know you have heard it a hundred times......"Don't give up", but that is almost the theme around here b/c you can't give up.......and you can move forward and you will survive if you will stick together here with us......there have been so many to prove that to be true.
I must go now b/c I eat breakfast with my mother on Christmas Eve. I don't mean to sound conceited when I say this, but I entertained my family for 18 years in my home on Christmas Eve, after my dad died, and I really made a big to do over it. I think they sort of look to me to .......well, you know....help with the "fun" of the family party. Pray for me that I can do that for them tonight.....that I can be "fun" for my family b/c if I am quiet and don't feel good.....it will bring them "down" and I don't want to ruin anyone's Christmas. Also, please pray for my two children that they will be well and won't be in so much pain that they cannot enjoy the celebration. That is always my prayer, that my family may be feeling well and happy.
May God bless each and every one of you. My heart goes out to you parents who cannot be with your grown children who may be in the war or are away from them for other reasons. I know it hurts very much.
I pray that each one of you will find peace in your lives this coming year.
Love to all, Sandi
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!
