I'm very proud that I'm actually going to vent/journal on here, and I'm taking it from an email I was going to send to W. I did not send it. I rationalized it by saying it was about kids, but it's not - my point was to show her how awful she is and what she is doing to kids.
I am worried about D8.
She has said some strange things.... She said last week: "I just want my Mom and Dad back" and cried very hard. Last few days she was super snuggly, very loving, reading with me, we talked many times for a long time just about nothing - books, Barbies, roller skating, when I was a kid. Literally hours of time, lots of snuggling, hugging, very loving - it was awesome!
Then the last couple of days, after we got home, she got really weird - very standoffish. She said she was going to tell W I said she was "kookoo". This is completely and categorically untrue, but W WOULD go kookoo if she heard that.
I told D8 I believe that divorce is wrong because two people promise each other and God to be with each other forever, even if there are problems. I also told her that I believe that it is wrong to have a relationship with another person - that should be what the mommy and daddy do together. I also told her that "I love Mommy dearly" and I think she is a "wonderful person" - I told her that W obviously felt differently and that was OK - it didn't mean that W was a bad person.
W will hate that, but I have to raise my kids the way I believe God wants me to - and I need stand up for me, and what I believe is right.
