--> I CANT DO MUCH BECAUSE I DONT SEE HIM!!!!! DO YOU UNDERSTAND THAT? THAT IS WHY I AM SO FRUSTRATED!!! --> What if I DONT HAVE THE STRENGTH? --> I think I am depressed, yes. Or getting there.
K, Got it. I would not want to be in your shoes because I have experienced all of the above in a huge way. The difference is you have some aces in your hand now which you may be able to use to get more time with H instead of being stuck in catch22.
