Time for ME to change...scared as hell...

[theotherhalf]

Thanks Snodderly,
I do do most things for myself. This is the one thing that I can't. As I said in last post I just can't ask anyone else to push snow. They all have their own stuff to do before going to their jobs.

I was doing pretty well at biting the tongue. It's when he went back home and then to see OW last week that I lost all strength. I am really struggling at getting back on the right road. I thank him always for doing things for me/us. About the only thing I can offer him is food and I do. Right now even my food is garbage to him. I am trying so hard.