Time for ME to change...scared as hell...

[theotherhalf]

WCW, I agree somewhat to what you are saying about going to Christmas. On one hand...but on the other. Something HAS to change here. I have to change. I have to do things different. If I go, there's a good chance bad will happen, he'll hurt me again. I have to stop it. So the only way I know to do that is to stay away. And isn't it high time he gets what he wants and that is me not in his life?

And your right about the independence thing. It's a work in progress. He has the 4wheeler to do his drive and some other family. He can't very well take the tractor to town. I really really don't want to ask neighbors to do this. They all work and have their own crap to do. I made the decision to stay out here. So that makes it even harder.