The Bomb: 08/05 H moves out: 06/2006 H moves back: 01/07 & Out again: 01/07 H moves back: 03/08 & Out again: 04/08 H moves back: 05/09 & Out again: 07/09 Divorced 08-12 Kids: 22, 20, 19
Thanks MrsH, you too, and I hope that life will take you to wonderful places of happiness.
Breton, I am under no illusion that this state of mind I am in, will be ever lasting. I will most certainly have moments of 'relaps' but what helps is to know that in my mind something was put in the right place...so when I'm sad, I will know that I can come back to this place again, because I understand it, and because I no longer feel that H is my prize in this. And more importantly, I do not want to be his prize in this as I do not see it as wonderful to have to become the type of person he needs now in his life. I do not wish to be that person. I am happy being me, and I will work at staying friendly with H, but for now (or forever - and that's how I feel right now) that's all I can offer him.
So it's not just about him, but it's also about me not wanting to sacrifice where I've come just to save my marriage. Does that make sense ?
I'm off to my parents in a few hours to celebrate Christmas Eve, I wish you all the greatest gift possible this Christmas...peace within you and the hand of God to guide you.
Take care xxx And Merry Christmas !
Love Cinders xxx
"In the depths of my winter, I realized there is within me an invincible summer" Albert Camus
Merry Christmas to you and your family. May the new year shine even brighter for you.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
You have earned this gift of clarity, but it comes with a responsibility. The proof is in the Christmas pudding. Actions speak louder than words. What actions will you take in the coming year to cement this clarity into your life?
What activity, hobby, social changes will you incorporate into your new life to make sure it is all it should be? Your job is not to decide what actions will make a change in H. Your job is to live the better life, your best life. Let the rest of the world follow.
