Thank you for writing to me. It really does not cease to amaze me how incredibly difficult this is.
It is so hard to really understand it all for me. I am finally starting to accept that there is very little, if anything I can do. That is really painful.
It is exhausting looking for any little sign of improvement because it always feels like one step forward and two steps back.
And I am so stressed out from validating statement like " I like being alone." "I am happy with my life." Particularly when they follow an email telling me how miserable he is or a statement two minutes earlier telling me he'll never be a happy guy.
I just cannot seem to detach. I just cannot do it and I think it is going to kill me.
