Expectations can ruin everything I agree. I got here because I didnt have any though. I allowed him to believe I was ok with ...nothing. My complains were never heard, my needs were never met (during the last couple years of our M). And Carlos, I am talking about NEEDS. Need to be held, need to talk with my spouse, need to laugh, need to ML, need to feel supported, protected, cared for... These are all needs for me.
We just got in a little...argument. He asked about my evaluation and I mentioned what my boss told me. He got all upset and said he doesnt accept responsibility for anything "I did at work". I kind of agree, how I handled things back then was my issue, but listening to him saying he had nothing to do with it, got me upset. I have this huge urge to tell him I want a year off my kids and everything and just go live somewhere on my own, take the kids every second weekend and live as a single... Then I would love to see how his work would be affected, even without the heartbreak.
As far as the schedule of the coming days, I told him we are invited on Christmas Eve at my brother's and then 26th at some friends. Christmas day I will cook for my family. He said he will come on Christmas Day but not to the other two invitations. "Unless you want me to come?". I said he is free to do whatever he feels like. He has off work. I hate this. I am tired of him. Would it be too bad if I just gave up? (not in a jolly mood) K
