Tailor wanna-be..time to mend & craft a lovely M

[Tomato]

ANd then no sooner will we be through with Christmas and the next disaster will be upon me. New Years F'ing Eve.

WHat FUN lies ahead.

Jesus rescue me

[Tomato]

guess I had better take care of some actual work and organize my flight case that is several revisions overdue.

Don't know whether this is good or bad, but I have chosen to change my VM greeting so that it no longer contains my voice at all. It just uses my phone number as my greeting.

I guess that is a sign of me withdrawing from ost everything and everyone. It seems I can trust no one. In whatever year my darling might decide to call me (since that is her perogative (sp?) though she doesn't want me calling her (WTF??)) that is the cold and distant greeting she will get.

I also am keeping the phone turned off but for short intervals. I guess this is my response to her telling me that it might be just as well for me not to be calling her anymore.

[Kalni]

Hi Tomato,
sorry I find you in a "low". Just a thought:why dont you change again your VM to a happy Tomato voice, signaling you are doing fine?
Stay strong,
xxx
K

[craig54]

Tomato,


You sound like you are having a real tough time, I can understand, the I cannot deal with this anymore sentiment.We all go through that.Please don't walllow in it too long, no good can come of it.

I understand the loneliness, so, call someone on the phone, make a time you can connect with one of your friends. Forget your wife for awhile.Pray Tomato, pray, and I will pray for you.

[BobbiJo]

I screamed at my son today b/c he didn't want to get dressed for karate. My mind was repeating "I can't do this anymore, I can't do this anymore"....but it wasn't just getting ready for karate, it was like I just wanted to stop doing....well, life...

I know it can suck and it can be overwhelming and test our faith. But you are a good man and I don't want you to stay down for too long. What can you do to help lift yourself back up?

[Tomato]

It is just a cyclical thing.

Sometimes the roller coaster riding can be fun, like extend your hands up in the air and howl like a wild man. And then other times the coaster riding can be about as welcome as an ice pick to the side of the head.

I read where you were shutting off your phone so as to eliminate the many disturbances that result from it. I have done the same.

I am beginning to think that Crissy is right and that I do really need to reach out to DD15 by calling her former foster mom who lives right next door to her and sees her regularly.

What does everybody else think?????

And Crissy, you have already weighed in of course


T

[Tomato]

I will accept any and all prayers said for my M restoration.

Thanks


T

[Tomato]

Time to say some now myself


Thanks craig for your constant support.


T

[Tomato]

I think I am gonna setup shop in Separated here pretty soon.

[Tawnya]

{{{Tomato}}} My friend..I love the question that was posed to you up a few posts above..WHAT can you do to help yourself feel better..

I have no easy answers for that, because what would work for me would not work for you and vice versa..sitting there listening to Rush would make me CRAZY..LOL..not a Rush fan (sorry..did our friendship just end right there? LOL)..

Also..please don't shut everyone out of your life because then you are stuck behind a wall by yourself..which is not a fun place to be..YOU are too kind and giving of a person to keep yourself locked away!

Hugs and prayers to you my dear T from T

Tawnya