Another wife Hit by the Bomb #6

[Tawnya]

{{{PDT}}}} Aww thank you for checking on me..according to my mom and a coworker, I SOUND TERRIBLE (LOL..which is sweet eh?), but actually I feel the best I've felt in about a week..and I did get another good night's sleep last night..so hopefully this mess is on its way out! How did the Christmas lights go..hopefully no problems and you aren't outside hanging upside down tangled in your Christmas lights

{{{Tomato}}} Hi T back from T. Ugh I hate that you are feeling down (Sandi this is my new "I'm sorry phrase" it seems LOL)..and I hope and pray that you spend some time renewing yourself in the Word and then GET THE SHACK book I promise you will love it..there were times reading that when I just felt soooo peaceful..it was very cool! Let me know when you start it/what you think!

{{{Kristi}}} Aww sweetie..I hear you about the Christmas spirit, I was telling Amy earlier today that this is the first year I have been so behind and just haven't gotten into the mood of Christmas, but honestly..also like I told her..GIRL we are breathing and still walking and not in a looney bin, so I think we are doing good to just get THRU this considering what we are all going thru..I hope you feel better by the time you read this now

{{{Sandi}}} Thank you for posting that to me as well..I ALWAYS need encouragement and a good talking to and I didn't read sarcasm anywhere in that post! You know, if you read back to where I was talking to my stepmom, she was like "you have to do SOMETHING to make him listen", and I think by the end of our convo she understood, I THINK?, that I was doing the most and the best I could do just by doing what I am doing. I told her that I had to look out for ME and the kids and just keep living my life and that if my hub gets his head on straight at some point, which I believe will happen (my faith talking!)!!, then all the better, but I can't just curl up and die!

I have spent wayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy too much time in my entire life doing things the wrong way, I was the ultimate begger, pleader, crier, arguer, and it rarely to ever worked while we were happily married and it sure as heck hasn't worked at ALL in the past 2 months..LOL..

It is hard at times, as a "fixer", to feel like you are doing nothing, but, in reality, you are right, ESPECIALLY for fixers, DB'ing can be the ultimately hardest thing we've ever done

And honestly, as crazy as it sounds and I've told many people this, this experience has been the best thing that could have happened to ME..as far as waking ME up to ME..not that I couldn't have done with it happening another way LOL..but..

Tawnya