My H said he misses me and the kids. Wants to know if I miss him. I found it difficult to answer. I dont really miss him anymore. Or at least not like I use too. He is so weird. But then again it is Christmas. He is going to miss us.
Oh well.
Kissak
"What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee." Psalms 56:3 M-37 H-37 S-10, D-15 M- 1993 First bomb- 12/23/06 Came and went too MANY times! Gone again 10-25-10
Hoping you feel the blessings of the season and wishing you a very Happy New Year!!!
I had lost your thread for a while. Just caught up and you sound fantastic! I'm so glad. You are never far from my thoughts even though your thread was.
Love and hugs!
Michelle
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Thanks Guys! I had a wonderful Christmas! My kids said this was the best Christmas ever, which made me feel good. Of course they got what they both wanted for Christmas, so that made me happy.
I was even surprised by their dad, he gave me a couple of things I really needed. He and his parents even invited me to their house to watch my kids open their gifts there. His parents and sister had even gotten me a gift which I was NOT expecting. So, things went well. My H has told me right much over the last few days how he misses me and the kids. He said he is glad that at least we can spend the holidays together and not fight and admit that we are missing each other. That was nice. Im glad he misses me. But Im afraid its just because of the holidays. We will see how far it goes. Im trying to stay somewhat detached still. He still does and says things that confuse me.
I hope you all have a Happy New Year!!!!
Kissak
"What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee." Psalms 56:3 M-37 H-37 S-10, D-15 M- 1993 First bomb- 12/23/06 Came and went too MANY times! Gone again 10-25-10
I had spent a nice evening with my kids last night. Well, it was nice but not quiet. They of course wanted to stay up till midnight. H stopped by around 11:50 to ring in the new year with us.
He has come to me wanting to talk to me about giving him another chance. Yes, another one. I told him that he had to first prove to me that he deserved one. Then show me he was serious this time about it. He said the holidays had really gotten to him. But I hate to say it, I have my doubts. I dont really miss him as much as I use too. Im not sure what it going to happen, but alot of praying is going on.
Hope all of you will pray for me too.
Have a great year!
Kissak
"What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee." Psalms 56:3 M-37 H-37 S-10, D-15 M- 1993 First bomb- 12/23/06 Came and went too MANY times! Gone again 10-25-10
Kissak, I will pray for you to have clarity in your heart. You know that God desires reconciliation but it has to come from both parties. If that reconciliation is only a renewing of friendship but not the marriage then that fulfills God's purpose as well. You will know in your heart if your H is being true through his actions, not his words.
(((((((((Kissak))))))))))))
T19 M15 S19 XH47 M43 bomb12/4/07 PA5/07 S12/26/07 D final 11/17/08 Back together with no defined R 05/2010 confused....to say the least!!!
WEll I have been trying to look for signs of something different with my H lately. We did finally talk some over the weekend. I asked him what he was thinking and feeling. He said that he just felt different about things. I told him I needed to know that he would be committed this time around. I told him I didnt want him to come back and in 2 weeks be gone again. TOld him I was not doing that again. Of course he said things he said before and I asked what was different this time. Cuz he said all this last time. He is hard to read now. He didnt want a decision made yet. So, Im not in a hurry to make one. Just looking and watching him. Im not gonna walk on eggshells. If I have to do that, Im not gonna. I did find out how much debt he is in now. Not a good thing if he comes back. Hes afraid I wouldnt want him and his problems back. HE's even talked to his parents about me and that he wants to come back.... Im still not sure. I still think he isnt ready.
Im still praying on what to do, but not stressing out about it though. Its a new year and Im really enjoying the single life.
Kissak
"What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee." Psalms 56:3 M-37 H-37 S-10, D-15 M- 1993 First bomb- 12/23/06 Came and went too MANY times! Gone again 10-25-10
You sound so good Kissak. I'm really happy for you.
You are very wise to tread lightly with your H and not take what he says as gospel. What he wants and what he is willing to do to get it are two totally different things.
Take care! Have a wonderful day!
T19 M15 S19 XH47 M43 bomb12/4/07 PA5/07 S12/26/07 D final 11/17/08 Back together with no defined R 05/2010 confused....to say the least!!!
