How are things with you and H if you don't mind me asking? My D17 finally spilled everything about why this Xmas will suck, Nana not coming up, you and mom not together, this just sucks, we should cancel it... It really hurt to hear her say that. I know its been going thru her head, as well as the other 3. It will suck and it will hurt, but I will bind this Xmas together. It may not be what it was, but it will be good and it will be ours. She will be there Xmas Eve and on Xmas with FIL at his house. I will be there shining like the crazy diamond that I am. Who knows, maybe thats where the other kiss is supposed to happen. don't really feel it righ tnow, but He works in mysterious ways. Maybe this time its not me....
I am still in the very good place Amy. FaithfulH, I am very relaxed, antsy, but relazxed. New furniture came, all of it. Looks dynamite. W was supposed to stop over to pick some things up, she never showed D17 is out the door. told her to lock it, too many xmas presents. If W shows, she can't get in, doors are locked and she has no key. Too bad, wanted her to see the new set.....Not to rub it in, to see it. I need to move my couch upstairs and do some furniture rearranging tonight. get it done, get it out of the way.
Something about W today, I dreamt or thought I did, can't remember what, but something is in my head and stomach, nothing emotional or draining, but something...
