I too have stopped drinking completely for now (no I didnt have a problem) and I am getting closer to God. I picked up a bible yesterday at the store and have started reading the new testament. I have always been religious to to certain extent but this experience has drawn me closer to God and I am thankful for that. I can't get through this without him. I have left this in his hands. I just need to stop getting in the way so he can do his work. He has a plan. I wish my wife all the best even if it is without me. I WILL find happiness and someone who will hold true to their vowes. It is sometimes hard to think about it but I know I am supposed to be happy in life. I am a good person.
I am glad that you are working through it LD. Like many people on this site you are an inspiration to me. It is nice to see that people are getting through this in one piece. I am sorry to hear about your wife leaving your kids and you. That is tough man. I guess there are some things we will never understand. It is strange that your wife left and is now miserable but doesn't realize what she could go back to. I hear you on the partying. My wife turned into the little party girl herself. I worry about her. She is drinking on top of the all th meds, started smoking cigarettes and lost alot of weight. She didn't need to loose any weight. She now looks unhealthy, coughs alot, looks tired, doesn't smile. Its tough man. She used to be a very health conscience person, vegetarian, in shape, wanted nothing to do with smoking, contagiously happy. I sucks because I know that she will probably have to hit rock bottom before bouncing back. Its hard to watch and wonder when and how that will be.
M 27 W 26 M 4.5 Years T 6 years Bomb Oct. '08; "ILYBIANILWY", "You don't fit into my life", "Our marriage had to have been a mistake because it is not working".
