You really seem to be a big proponent of my reaching out to DD15 Crissy. Aren't you? You must understand ... I don't think my heart can take too much more of this crap. SO as not to be misunderstood, I am not equating DD15 with CRAP. It is just that all that encircles the situation is CRAP.
Perhaps it is the right thing to do , IDK. But there is a part of me that wants to believe that DD15 does really know how much I truly love her. Maybe it would serve some good for her to hear it again? I can not talk to her directly anyway as that is now forbidden. But she could possibly be given the message that I called and was asking about her.
I just do not know what to think or what to do. This is all to heavily charged emotionally for me.
