Hey Hope, that is the same thing I want for Christmas too! Maybe all of our Christmas Wishes will come true! I asked H if he wanted anything and he said no. When he asked me I said nothing, before we have said not going to get anything because we are going on the trip to Arizona instead, but I said I got him a small thing, just a jar that counts your change when you put it in there. I did take my old guitar and get it tuned for him today, it isn't a good one, the guy at the store wanted me to buy a new one..not going to do that yet, until he decides he wants to keep playing, but at least if it is in tune, maybe it will help.
Hope you are doing really well, and are very inspirational! Take care! Enjoy your soup!
Wouldn't that be wounderful? If all of the marriages were restored and all of the hurt healed? If I could ask for one thing for Christmas, that is what I would want. All of my friends here (my DB family) to have their families happy, healthy and whole again.
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Most of us are about as happy as we make up our minds to be.
ah sweetie, I so wish for the same christmas gift that you do. that would be so wonderful. I have to work on shopping, i am so behind its not funny!! and i am no where near ready for next week, in any way lol! stay warm and love ya!
M 36 XH 34 3 children If a house is divided against itself, that house will not be able to stand. Mark 3:25 "your mood swings are giving me whiplash" twilight ALIVE FREE AND HAPPY 2010
I am so far behind that at this point I really don't even care. I guess I am glad that I don't have any little ones that will be disappointed.
H is out plowing, and was pouting this morning that he had to go do it. I know that he really doesn't want to go to my family Christmas anyway, so you think that he could have the grace to accept the fact that this excuse (work) has been provided to him.
One good thing happened yesterday. He was sitting in his recliner and I went over and put my head in his lap. He was stroking my hair, and said that he really appreciated the fact that I was not throwing the A in his face every day now, that he knew I was keeping it all inside and he knew that it was eating at me, that it was probably easier for me to let it out, but that he thought it was a good thing for our M, that we weren't all the time fighting about it any more. He thanked me. Said that this strength on my part was really helping us.
I know that it's a big thing that he noticed, and a bigger thing that he vocalized it. I'm thankful for that. Now, if I can just keep all that I am internalizing from eating out my insides all will be good!
Most of us are about as happy as we make up our minds to be.
Morning Hope, I am glad that your H and you are talking and progressing. I bet that is a good feeling! I know it takes a lot to work through everything for you! You are doing wonderful!
I am so behind too, if I get 1/2 the ornaments on the tree I will be happy. Not even getting the set out stuff out this year. Oh well!
Have a great day at you family Christmas Hope! Take Care! Be careful driving.
hey namesake! i was worried bout you yesterday! WOW on what your H said, that on his part was huge, BUT i agree its so hard on us to keep it all in, maybe we can just go off to eachother instead? idk, sad that we have to worry about THEM and THEIR feelings right now. but thats what we have to do. I hope you have fun today, enjoy it. i HAVE to get some shopping done. love ya
M 36 XH 34 3 children If a house is divided against itself, that house will not be able to stand. Mark 3:25 "your mood swings are giving me whiplash" twilight ALIVE FREE AND HAPPY 2010
he really appreciated the fact that I was not throwing the A in his face every day now, that he knew I was keeping it all inside and he knew that it was eating at me, that it was probably easier for me to let it out, but that he thought it was a good thing for our M, that we weren't all the time fighting about it any more. He thanked me. Said that this strength on my part was really helping us.
It is good that he recognizes this but please be careful that you aren't just stuffing it all inside and not dealing with your internal grief. You will blow at some point! Find a release for yourself that isn't directed at H.
It also seems like such a fine line between letting him off the hook too easy and he doesn't have to feel guilty anymore vs forgiving and healing and moving forward with grace. KWIM?
Live your life while you are still living. Riding the trail less traveled.
Morning Hope, How is all that snow? Very cold here this morning, 2 degrees! I need some hot chocolate! How was your family's Christmas yesterday? I hope you had a wonderful time! Take care!
