Working on a friendship

[Belle]

Thanks for stopping by optimist. Everything is fine.

H and I went to dinner last night for Christmas and we had a good time. I got him 2 audio books (Live your Best Life Now and Awakening to Your Life's Purpose.)

I haven't been on the boards lately - I needed a break.

I told my H last night that I have enjoyed talking with him more lately and I wondered if he feels we'll just always be friends or more. He responded that he's not sure, he's confused. (Which I figured). I know everyone on the board will say it's a mistake to talk about R, but that's exactly the reason I haven't been on the boards.

I need communication in my life. I haven't muttered a word about the R for 4 month. My psychologist said that just simply asking him that question, that certainly won't make him run the other way if he is considering reconciliation. I didn't pressure,just wanted to know where he's coming from. He may be doing all this purely out of friendship - no thoughts or feelings of reconciliation at all. That would be nice to know for me so that I'm not setting myself up for a huge disappointment.
So, I'm glad I asked.

He asked me where I was coming from and I told him I'm not sure either - I know that our marriage wasn't a good situation and that if we did get back together it would have to be really different. He agreed and said we would have to go to counseling. I know he was a little uncomfortable because he changed the subject by mentioning about his sister and her marriage.

Anyways, we're both headed out of town for the holidays. Him to FL- that lucky dog! Today it's -10 degrees F. Awful!!!

I won't be on the boards for a while - staying at my parents and they don't have internet!