Thank you for checking on me!! Yes, the holidays are hard. My Mom started talking about my H yesterday, she just gets so angry & upset, she still can't believe that he could or would do something like this, he was such a special person & she said everyone could tell how crazy we were about each other. I know she needs to talk but sometimes I have a hard time dealing with it. I usually just listen & try to change the subject when I can. Then, last night I was looking for something in a drawer, I saw a picture album & opened it, it was my wedding pictures. He looked so good!!! I didn't look at them, only the first one.
Today after church several of us went to the nursing home & sang Christmas songs, it was very sweet & those people just loved it. That made me feel pretty good. There is a guy who came with us that is married to my cousin, he & I used to date. Anyway, he has been so supportive, told me today that they were thinking about me all the time, they just hate it so bad what has happened.
Thank you all for being here for me!!!! I wasn't going to get on line tonight but just felt like it, I'm glad I did. You all mean the world to me & I really appreciate you being here for me!!
