I honestly don't know anymore, MC. I hate the guy I just spoke with.
I don't know what I want.
I feel like I deserve better, and that at this point I am wasting my time. I remember every problem we ever had, and everything that ever bothered me about him, and it just doesn't seem worth it right now.
What I really want is my old life back, but he's stolen that from me. And in any case, my old life was a lie. I just miss the comfort of it. I am exhuasted. Sometimes, I still come home and fully expect to see him there, to wake up and realise this has all just been a bad dream.
