So I've spent a lot of time crying today. I realize that I'm the one hurting myself because I'm the one staying in this limbo by not accepting the situation as it is. It's easier to stay stuck and hurt because moving on is a scary thing.
But hurting sucks worse. I need to pick myself up and define myself again. I'm at the bottom so there's nowhere else to go but up. I'm no longer a husband. I'm pretty close to being a train wreck but I can stop it, change direction, move on.
