he really appreciated the fact that I was not throwing the A in his face every day now, that he knew I was keeping it all inside and he knew that it was eating at me, that it was probably easier for me to let it out, but that he thought it was a good thing for our M, that we weren't all the time fighting about it any more. He thanked me. Said that this strength on my part was really helping us.
It is good that he recognizes this but please be careful that you aren't just stuffing it all inside and not dealing with your internal grief. You will blow at some point! Find a release for yourself that isn't directed at H.
It also seems like such a fine line between letting him off the hook too easy and he doesn't have to feel guilty anymore vs forgiving and healing and moving forward with grace. KWIM?
Live your life while you are still living. Riding the trail less traveled.
