Okay, so I met this very nice man...doesn't seem to play games and seems very straight-forward...and I will have to get rid of my ambivalence towards him and the situation...

Although, being aloof has always been a way for me to be less vulnerable...And vulnerability is not a strong point for me...the possiblity of being hurt has always made move in the opposite direction.

This was something I did even before my marriage and I think was a contributor to problems in my marriage...so I must learn to stop it and be vulnerable or else I will not have learned anything...

So, we will see where this leads me...hopefully to a better understanding of myself and towards the future...

Aug '06: H moved out
July '08: H had a kid with the OW
May 12 '09: emancipation day

"Life moves pretty fast. You don't stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it." -Ferris Bueller