Your feelings right now are normal given the current situation.
I know first hand how hard this is to endure. I have been just where you are many times.
You seem to have expectations of H. You must learn to have NO EXPECTATIONS.
Last night I found an old thread from 2007 started by Happy Ending. He describes his thoughts and feelings and emotions while being the WAS. You may want to read it too. It is an eye opener, even though it is his emotional state of mind and everyone is different.
I found it while reading the threads from Mrs JJJ. She wrote a post in my thread. You can go there and click on her name to find it. I think you should it is full of valuable info.
Let me know what you think after you read it....
Sanderika
ME48/H48MLC T 33y M 28y S16 OW 8/7/05 Bomb 8/16/05 Sep 9/05 H f'd D 10/3/08 D pp'd 1/20/09,7/24/09,12/4/09 D dismissed 2/5/10 H served me D papers again 9/4/10 D dismissed 9/26/11
