JJ, I take it you are thanking ME for hitting you with a 2x4? heh heh.
Sorry you are feeling down. Let me tell you that ALL OF US, at one time or another, geel that way. We all have our moments. All of us.
I hear what you are saying about feeling lonely. I know that feeling. That's a biggee.
If it is too draining to keep on hoping, maybe the right thing is to drop the proverbial rope? It is one thing to labor on, hoping against hope, for reconciliation. It is another thing to live your life, and yet remain open to the possibility of reconciliation.
Some may say I am splitting hairs, but to me the difference is significant. Now is the time for you to focus on yourself, find bliss, re-invent yourself, draw on your inner strength to grow.
One day you will turn around and look, and you may yet miss him. or you may just remember him faintly. I know that may sound sad.
