I am in much the same position you are in finally coming to accept the need to detatch, and actually make some financial decisions. It's so hard! I too meant my vows and still mean them and never expected that he didn't feel the same.
I too feel some desire to get on with my own life, or at least little moments when I feel that way. But, then my emotions swing back to so saddened that the thing I believed in and loved most in the world is falling apart! It sure make me feel a lot less trusting in my own judgement. I'm sure you know what I mean.
Anyway, hang in there!! You are a strong lady!! ((((hugs))))
TJ
Me45,H49 D24,S18 M26,T28 Bomb 3/19/08 Sep 6/23/08 EA/PA with Secretary 2007-8 3/2009 H moved in w/OW2 7/2009 Let him go w/Love. 8/2009 Legally Sep'd