Well, These last few days have been pretty good. The last two nights I have been spending time with my wife helping her setup some databases and spreadsheets for her work. We also did some errands such as grocery shopping, being stuff for our daughters xmas party at daycare, etc. We have been playing around a lot too and just joking around. I've really have been enjoying it.
That said, 2-3 times this week she has made comments such as "yeah, you think you are winning me back don't you." Today we were on the phone and as we were talking she mentioned, "don't think that we are getting back to together again - because I won't make that mistake again...so get that out of your head if you're hoping for that." I responded playfully by saying "what makes you think I want to get back with you - after all, I'm a good catch and there are plenty of beautiful and intelligent women out there." Maybe my response wasn't the best, but I really didn't know how to respond to that. She didn't say that in a serious voice or anything, but I always hate it when she mentions stuff like that - really tests my faith.
In addition, after she told me to get out of my head the thought of reconciliation, she then goes on to tell me that she sees me as one of her girl friends and that I am easy to talk to. After our conversation, I started to think whether or not I was setting myself up for a "lets just be friends" type of relationship rather than a marriage. In my mind, I couldn't and wouldn't want to have us just be friends in the long run. Ultimately, this is an all or nothing thing for me. While I will have to always interact with my wife due to our daughter, I wouldn't want to be friends with my wife if there wasn't going to be any hope of reconciliation. Any thoughts or suggestions on this? Am I being "too friendly", too much of a friend that I am sabotaging my chances of true reconciliation?
