So, we met after midinight (!!!) and went to this place with another 8-10 people. We actually went to my fav singer that I used to go to see, when I was younger and a lot DURING the first time we broke up before we got married... (9 years ago)
The group of people was pleasant and warm with me. H sat by me until 5:45 in the morning (yes, that is when it was over), never tried to kiss or hug me. We would talk, laugh, comment on things, the guy was singing nice love songs and ... nothing.
I dedicated a song to him he said he didnt know. When he listened closely he heard the lyrics "finally I am alone, it took me some time but now I know life is so much better without you bla bla bla", I was laughing, he was too (no hurt feelings).
We came home around 06:15, told him he could stay since we had an apt to go buy presents for kids "next" morning. He stayed, we slept in the same bed, each of us to our own side, pre bomb familiar scene. We got up and he came and kissed me on my neck (I was up earlier), I had made coffee for both of us, suggested a plan and he said he was fine with it. We had lunch out with the kids, then shopping for toys and then he got us home and left to go to work. He kissed me on my lips (no real kiss) for half a second and left. Tomorrow he is picking up the kids to see his friend & his wife that dont talk to me and I am furious with. I'll have time on my own to go shopping for presents and just relax...
I am having my family here for Christmas, I am cooking, dont want my mom to do anything, I mentioned it, he said nothing.
Conclusion : we are friends. Familiar with each other. Comfortable. Like brother and sister. He is nicer to me: calmer, tries to keep me "happy", and a few other things I have mentioned. Still, no romance, no passion, no man and woman interaction. "THIS" marriage could/can go on forever. He would probably find another OW again in a few years and we would still be "friends". I would probably go back to my shopping therapy, painting silly stuff (I need to, cancelled so many orders the last few days), and writing a book I am preparing. And then maybe one day I will just walk away and never look back again...
Today I told him my patience with the kids is non-existent lately. He said he sees that. I said "I want a break". Maybe I will take a couple of weeks off and do something unusual... K
