It's Complicated!

[glamgirl]

Thanks everyone for all the kind words, advice, support, and ideas. It means more to me than you could imagine. Today I am still sad but more numb. Lack of patience with the kids today and lack of motivation.

I am going to scrape myself off the chair, bed, floor though and start baking.

Thanks Upside for letting me know about your h not being there either. Not that I wouldn't want your h to be with you, but I don't feel as alone now. This hit me hard, since my h seemed for months in such a good place.

You and I have been working on reconciling and now it seems we are both in the same boat for the holidays and our h's are so close. I think this is 2nd Christmas for you 3rd for me. I hope you still have a lovely holiday.

Off to baking. No word from h. I just hope I can maintain my composure today when he does arrive.