First of all, I want to sincerely THANK everyone for your support, prayers, well-wishes and JOKES over the past week. I know I haven't thanked everyone individually, and I haven't posted much, but I read EVERYTHING, on both forums, and even though some of them made me cry, they all helped me get thru a very sad week in my life and I was nothing short of blown away by the love and support.
My wife and I are headed rapidly toward this divorce, uncontested, and most likely thru mediation. We have an appt. with the mediator for after Christmas, and I've already typed up a couple of drafts of what we might be able to do, custody/alimony/support wise.
After a lot of tears and moodiness last Sunday and Monday, my wife is now acting HAPPY, which to be honest, PISSES ME OFF. I do think she has ZERO CLUE as to what she's in for, as I have been SO much of her financial, emotional, household and parenting support, and she seems to be in denial about our finances. But she must have some carefree-single lifestyle fantasy in her head right now, and it's put her in a good mood, which makes me 1/3 sad and 2/3 ANGRY.
My "life" is going to SUCK financially. If I could afford to get my own place, and fix it up the way I always wanted (we said when we moved into this house, with its big game room upstairs, that I would FINALLY get that pool table I've always wanted .... yeah, right...), then I might be able to get into this. I AM genuinely happier, sad to say, when she's NOT home and it's just me and the boys here. I feel I am able to be myself more, and I do enjoy my freedom. But until and even IF we can get this house sold for a profit, I am most likely looking at staying with my in-laws, doing my George Costanza impersonation.
NOT very attractive, and NOT where I wanted to be at this stage in my life.
I should have done this a long time ago; at least I'd be further along by now.
