Thanks Sir, you always have a different perspective. Yes maybe I did have some expections of my h about coming for the holidays. Well why wouldn't I since he mentioned back in Nov when we were shopping and I asked if he was coming for Christmas and his response "of course". Now back in my mind I felt I couldn't trust his decision and then here I am left disappointed.

I do toy with the idea of getting "a new husband". Who doesn't. At least with a "new husband" I wouldn't be spending the holidays alone or sleeping alone. I know that might sound strange, but I like being M and I like the family stuff.

I just wanted those things with my current h, but if I am an aggravation to him then why would he want to be with me?


Me 50
H 42
S 22
S 9
D 7
M 12
T 17
H moved out 8/2006
H moved home 1/2007 for 3 weeks
H moved home 5/2011 for good

"Learn from yesterday ~ Live for today ~ And hope for tomorrow"