Thanks Sir, you always have a different perspective. Yes maybe I did have some expections of my h about coming for the holidays. Well why wouldn't I since he mentioned back in Nov when we were shopping and I asked if he was coming for Christmas and his response "of course". Now back in my mind I felt I couldn't trust his decision and then here I am left disappointed.
I do toy with the idea of getting "a new husband". Who doesn't. At least with a "new husband" I wouldn't be spending the holidays alone or sleeping alone. I know that might sound strange, but I like being M and I like the family stuff.
I just wanted those things with my current h, but if I am an aggravation to him then why would he want to be with me?
Me 50 H 42 S 22 S 9 D 7 M 12 T 17 H moved out 8/2006 H moved home 1/2007 for 3 weeks H moved home 5/2011 for good
"Learn from yesterday ~ Live for today ~ And hope for tomorrow"