I havent posted much. Been doing a lot of thinking. Now that my h has told my s he is leaving, even though he didnt tell him that he would be two hours away and who he is moving in with, I have to wonder why he is still here.
Perhaps it is because of the holidays, or that he doesnt really want to move in with his ow's 71 year old mother (no choice financially) and would rather be in his own apartment, but, it is not right that he is doing this to s again.
He told him 10 months ago he wants to leave and stayed. Now its been almost three weeks and he is still here.
I just told him that I invited my sister for Christmas Eve. He seemed angry. I dont know if it is because he knows my sister knows about him and ow or what. Last year he spent Christmas Eve with the ow. I assume he is going to again. But I told him because I didnt tell him about Thanksgiving and going to my sister's and I felt like it was the right thing to do.
So, he might be here, he might not. I dont know. In a lot of ways, it would be better if he wasnt. Things are much easier when he is not. My niece and nephew could play without being reprimanded for being kids. My sister and I are very laid back, he is not. He is picky about food and how its served and generally not too much fun, never was.
Dont mean it to sound like he is so terrible, just telling it like it is. So I am going about my business, getting ready for the holidays. Dont know what he is doing, just doing my thing.
I think he is going to leave in January, so I really must file. I cannot trust him to do the right thing regarding money. And it has cost me thousands and thousands not filing before this. I really have ruined my financial future by waiting.
I feel like I have been holding my breath for 18 months. I need to take a nice long deep breath and face my life.
