Time for ME to change...scared as hell...

[theotherhalf]

MWG, thought about it, seriously. But we have this "issue", "pact", "agreement", about the phone. We have kids, the farm, livestock, etc...when I call him he NEEDS to answer the phone. So I try to give him the same respect so that he will answer when I call him. So when he called last night I really really didn't want to answer. I knew that he'd been drinking, I knew it probably wouldn't be good but I felt I HAD to answer. I think I did okay with how I handled it. I hope.

Sympathy maybe, I don't know. I just see that he is spinning so badly right now. He is so back to the same place he was a year ago and I really don't understand how it happened. I so truly believed we were so through that part of this. It seemed He had come so far. What the hell happened? I looked back in my journel and H hasn't been like this since early August. I am so friggin confused and frustrated!