Hi Esky - Yes i had been dbing hard for a while now but i see no progress at all. Not even an inch forward from H. I feel now that it is working on myself ( doing new things etc ) is the way forward. If H never notices at least I know I am a better person.
I wish H all the love and support in the world. I seem to not be able to be angry - but I think i had been angry for 10 years prior. I just want to be happy and content.
I don't want to be punished anymore by H either. My lesson is learnt, I have made good changes in my self esteem , which was low, explaining why i also treated H the way i did. i know now that when you don't feel so good about yourself, you make others not feel good about themselves. wrong wrong wrong. Will never treat another human being with anything but the respect they deserve, just being themselves. Wish I had learned that 10 years ago But you cant turn back time.
