It's Complicated!

[glamgirl]

Ok I am a mess tonight. H was here we had a fun time bowling with the kids. H injured his finger, so he had to bowl without using the finger holes. He could still bowl strikes. I am impressed.

When we got back. I mentioned something about picking my sis up from the airport on Monday and he said NO. Then I asked about Christmas and he said he was NOT coming.

I just said well h you must hate my sis that much to not want to come. Then I proceeded to say for one day you can't put your differences aside to spend Christmas with your family.

Of course, no response. I proceeded to surf the internet. Then h says can you respond to that invite for the holiday party. Now I was about furious at this point. He wants to attend a party, like we are some happy couple and then can't even spend Christmas with his family.

Soon after that convo h left. Before he left he said do you need me on Saturday. I just said did you need to spend time doing work stuff. He said if you need me I will come over. I guess his way of saying are you mad or can I still come over. I just said of course we need you.

He gave me a quick kiss and left. I am so upset. I did say h it's been 3 years of you still holding on to stuff. I guess you are going to be like this the rest of your life. I am floored that he can't get his head out of his a**.

I really don't know how I can proceed here. I know it's only a holiday, but I am not sure I have it in me to continue this journey. I see my h as a selfish prick. I know that is harsh, but he comes over like we are together and then can't even spend Christmas with us.

Does he really hate us that much? Any thoughts! I am so sad! I worked so hard on this R and then this is all I have to show for it.