Hi NW:
I don't know if her defenses are down or not...I think maybe she's just feeling some of the emotions of a holiday with a broken family.

S2 was still sick today, so he stayed with me and we didn't go to his pageant. This morning, on her way here, my W asked me if I could do her a favor and give her some gift labels...I would have been happy to give her the labels if I had them - but I didn't have any...so I couldn't oblige.

She emailed three times today to ask about baby and whether or not I was going to take him to his pageant - and also told me what he had eaten at her place last night.

This evening, when she came by, she was her usual distant self again - and even did her lovely thing of turning her back on me while I was talking with her - only because I was telling her that baby has been doing well with pedialtye that that I didn't think he had to go home early with her tomorrow so he could breast feed...any time I disagree with anything she says she behaves that way...this time, as she turned a way, a thought jumped into my head: I deserve better than this...

I wonder if that thought will continue to grow.


Me:39
S3,S13

"We consent to live like sheep." W.H. Auden

On my own
Separation #4