I'm having the same thoughts Nas. When is it ok to try letting the rage spew forth as it's the only thing left to try?
Seriously, I wish I could answer that but I cannot. Perhaps that time never comes - not if you're taking the high road. I've been considering the cold, hard reality that even if we do get a D and are truly and completely done with eachother that I will still never have a chance to release my rage on him. I could, but it would gain me nothing. It would only diminish me.
That is perhaps the most frustrating part of all of this. I want to fall into hate soemtimes, but the truth is that if I do allow myself to hate then he still has bloody power over me.
Sickening, this mess.
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I can't wait to read your novel when it's finished!
Oh, thank you so much, hunny! *hugs* Hopefully I can really get back on that bandwagon soon.
*hugs* Hopefully I can really get back on that bandwagon soon.