Thanks gang. I did decide that I'll just see where this is headed. If she's just trying to repair a bridge to friendship, ok that's fine. Being friends will make life going forward easier when it comes to parenting and such.
So I am not expecting anything from it but I am fighting off the feelings of hope. That is extremely hard to do because honestly I do still love her. I still get a skip in my heart when I see her for the first time or she walks into a room. I look forward to conversations with her, or her just being nearby. So I have some personal work to address here.
I do have a simple strategy, just be nice and friendly without expectations. This way I can guard my heart, our girls can benefit from positive interactions between their parents and my ex-wife and I can have positive interactions with each other. And if "it's meant to be" well it'll have to start with friendship and positive interactions.
So what is this week's challenge? Well, on Sunday when she dropped off the girls at my house she brought along cookies and a Christmas card. She signed it from her and the girls. I won't make even crumbs from this but it was nice. She joined the girls and me for dinner then too. I asked (it just came out, I hate when I do that) and she replied even before I had finished asking. Again, take it for what it's worth, just a nice dinner at a pizza parlor.
We did exchange Christmas lists via email and she replied almost immediately to me that she was on eBay looking for my gift. LOL! She loved what I was getting the girls, bikes and told me that although a bike is on her list for me not to spend that much money on her. So, she's getting the popcorn popper she asked for.
BTW, AmyC if you are out there, I'd love your insight given how you and your husband have played this friendship game for so long.
If we really want to love, we must learn how to forgive. - Mother Theresa
