I asked H where he was so late last night. He was 'working' at ows. Now the good news is that he actually told me where he was rather than just tell me it's none of my business. I understand many of his clients are at ows and he has to be there. That won't ever stop. The fact that he told me also makes me feel that he is not covering up an affair anymore because there is none any longer. When it was an affair he would never admit where he was unless I caught him red handed.
Just the mention of her though still sends me into an inner rage but I was very calm as I told H I know he doesn't give a rats a$$ about my feelings but that he has to decide what he wants and if it is with me it has to be real not what we've been doing for 5 years. He just looked at me.
We are invited to a Christas party tonight but it hasn't been mentioned since the invitation came. I have no clue if H plans to attend, and being it is party from 'his' circle I won't go if he doesn't. What I don't know is if he plans to go without me. I won't ask, and he doesn't have to come home for good clothes if he works today because he carries his clothes with him.
We have another party tomorrow night and I will go with or without him.
This morning we are halfway thru a monster snow storm and have over 6" already. We probably will get the 12" predicted, then more tomorrow and more on Sunday before the sub zero temps roll in! Ain't life grand!!!
I pretty much finished the little bit of Christmas gift shopping last night. Yeah!! I have to get motivated to wrap stuff now. I really don't have much ambition to do anything that isn't mandatory. blech.
Live your life while you are still living. Riding the trail less traveled.
