Well, just found out why MIL wrote to me, probablym because she does know about Helen. Gutted. I feel so humiliated, replaced, all the family know, everyone knows. Why did I thikn they didnt?

My ex just phoned me ! For over an hour, hour and 10 I think? Sounded very sweet.. there were some signigicant bits, but I will post later. The way he was talking, I thought they had split up, but I see now, he just tries not to rub my face in it.

He said sweetly he had sent me a little something in the post.. I said, what is it? He said.. "a package", so he has sent me a present. I said.. oh I will have to give you yours when I see you.. but he said, oh I dont really know what I am doing after...but yes, definetly, we will meet up.

Anyway, he is going skiing tommorow mirning, with his brother, SIL. He said it he was going skiing with his brother as he didnt feel christmassy at all and didnt know what else to do and it was very last minute.. then 1/2 hour in I said, wow, so just you brother and SIL ! (I was jubilant as he sounded sinlge, saying he had been off sick all week and couldnt cook himself any food).. and he paused and said.. "ohh... and.. someone else.. sorry Al... ".. so he is going skiing for a week with Helen. A holiday with her. Over Christmas week. With his family.

...the post just arrived! Its his parcel...a wrapped present and card in a red envelope...

Gutted. Am I ever going to get over this? Going to go open it.