It's Complicated!

[glamgirl]

Wow what a week. S7 finally will have school today and D4 we have been taking to daycare all week. Another snow storm expected on Sunday. Yeah I am on vacation.

The house is a mess. I haven't worked out at the gym in 2 weeks. First was sick, then the snow and on top of that lack of motivation, but today I woke up at 3am feeling refreshed.

I am all dressed ready to go,just waiting for the gym to open. I must get back on track. Today my plans are cleaning the house. My sis arrives on Mon.

After issues with h on Mon, he came over on Wed to watch the kids. I stayed late at work. When I stay late, h most of the time says when are you coming home. You have been there all day. It really is all the same things that I complain about him, but I haven't complained about his work to him since he started. I have been very supportive.

H came and picked me up from work and then I picked up a few groceries. Soon after that h left. When he left on Wed night I said I had everything covered for Thur and that if he couldn't make it on Thur I would understand. He said NO I will be there.

I usually call h after I drop D4 off at daycare every morning. Well I am swamped at work, finishing things up before vacation, so I didn't call h Thur morning. Well soon after I got into work h calls. Now this was a pleasant suprise, since h has rarely called unless he is on his way or out traveling. H doesn't answer when I call in the morning, I just leave a nice v-mail.

He just wanted to know what was going on and that he wouldn't be at the house until around 5pm. He said he was just letting me know so he doesn't get his A** chewed. I guess meaning from me. I see how he views me. We agreed that h would pick up D4, but as it got late in the day, I figured h was running late, so I just grabbed her.

On my way home from daycare, h called and thanked me for getting her. He said I am on my way to the house. H was in a good mood. I fixed a light dinner. H asked me to rest on the couch with him.

He made some comments about how uptight I get about things and that I should just let things go. He mentioned that I agravate him. That didn't make me feel so good, but I just let it go. I guess he thinks what he possbily does he couldn't ever agravate me. Is there a pill he could take for this?

Well h was being very affectionate and since the kids were busy playing he suggested we have quickie upstairs. I said h that works for me. It seemed like such a long time ago that I had sex, that I almost forgot what to do, but I remembered very quickly.

When h left he said see you tomorrow. We have D4's Christmas program at school. He also said he would be over on Saturday and then Sunday he said let's have breakfast without the kids and we have a Christmas party to go in the afternoon. I am getting my hair done on Sunday, so h is taking me to the appointment since heavy snow is expected.

It was weird past thoughts were popping in my head and I was thinking it was just a mere year ago that I would be driving to my work crying about my situation and then drying my eyes and hoping nobody noticed while I was at work. I would have to put on that happy face before I walked through those work doors. Now those days are few. That is a good thing and a good sign.

Things do get better regardless of the outcome. Now if I can figure out how not to agravate my h.