(((Mishka))) Thank you for being such a wonderful support! You are right in many things you said, mainly that it is mostly about him right now, I accept that annoying as it is. I'm not really sure where I see myself in a year. Future thinking scares me a lot! I don't really see myself with him as it seems such an impossibility right now. I know that I will be strong though and I will be successful, for me.

(((OD))) I know you are right. Sigh, it is just annoying though. Thank you for reminding me that Christmas can be a nightmare - so true!! Enjoy ow You are right that a talented man is attractive, I just don't think I could go there though!!!!! The floppy hair is too much

(((T))) No recording unfortunatly. I wish there was! Do you have one of your finals or concerts? I would love to hear it if there is. You and OD are right it sucks balls in a major way. He is the one missing out though imo. Christmas is such fun at my house! I guarantee it won't be as fund wherever he is going!

H answered my text,

'Hi sorry I am being hopeless, it's a manic week, various xmas parties plus trying to get all my work done before I go on holiday! Do you think we could talk on the phone tomorrow then meet up after xmas if we need a to discuss face-to-face? Thanks for letting me know about (the mortgage company)'#

I replied a couple of hours later.
'Ok call me tomorrow then' and told him I was sitting opposite a guy we used to work with at the Albert Hall. That was something that would have made him laugh.

I understand he is having a manic week and can't really focus on me, I would have had a huge strop about this before. His text had a nicedr tone - if that is possible. I still cross his mind as he took so long to text back - you'd think he'd just reply straight away if he didn't think about me. He is still 'giving' me something by calling me to let me know - if he does...

On the negative, he isn't overly enthusiastic about seeing me, it's the 'if we need to'. But this could take a few meetings to build up, if it does at all.

So we shall see how the phone call goes tomorrow. My proposed tactic is that I will mainly just listen and thank him for letting me know and it will give me lots to think about. Or is that me pushing for more meetings next year. Should I try and resolve things over the phone. I know that phone calls don't really work and that meeting is much better.

M- May 2006
D - Aug 2010
Now travelling the world