Over the past few days, I've regained some sense of myself and personal dignity. I am disappointed in some of his behaviour and certainly in the result. However, it was only my preference to be with him, my very strong want and desire ... I do not need him.
I called my h and told him that I hoped this would work out for him, given how long he has waited and hoped. I mean this genuinely - if he cannot find love with me, he deserves to find it with another woman.
And I am confident that I will find love again. Everything that I am learning through this process will enrich my next relationship.
I've signed on to a few on-line services to find some male friends. I'm not ready to give my heart away but I am ready to enjoy male companionship.
