Making my own good karma!!

[Silent Chrleader]

(((Upside)))

Thank you for your advice and encouragement. My H has admitted it's not me, it's him, but he has no desire to work on anything. He says he's been "faking it" for years. I know they say believe nothing you hear and only half of what you see, but he really seems to mean it. And knowing my H, even if he ever came around to a different understanding, he would never say so.

I am hoping that I will be more able to detatch and feel better getting into my new place with just me and my S17 and my 2 chihuahuas. It's a nice complex that has a community clubhouse that has get-togethers and such, and a gym and indoor pool. I could get something cheaper, but I am hoping that this way, I can maybe meet the neighbors and have a little support system there. Plus they have security so I feel safer. The only drawback is that it's less than a mile from our house and I will likely see H on the ferry since we both commute to the city to work, but I thought it was more important that S17 stay near friends to keep him as stable as possible.

I am not going to file for D. I am leaving everything up to H from now on. I am so exhausted and I just want to go to bed and sleep for a week! I hope my medication kicks in soon! Better livin' through pharmaceuticals!! That's what I'm talkin' about!!