Hi Nasmat! I just love reading your posts--they are long, but I love to read, so keep them coming. I read most of your threads, and again, I am so amazed at the similiarities. I definitely went through and still go through the blaming myself stage. I should have done this differently, said that differently, etc., etc. I know I've done things wrong, but I'm not fully to blame. We all do things wrong, and if the W is looking for perfection, I'm afraid she never be satisfied. Anyhow, this morning went well. I had myself all psyched up to tell her to either decide to work on our relationship or just file for D, but then last night I read more from DR and I realized that I wasn't prepared to end our marriage, which is undoubtedly the choice my W would have made. So, this morning she came, we took our daughter to school, pulled up to the train station early--I told her I was going to relax in the car until the train came, to which she said, "Oh, do you want to be alone?" I said, not necessarily, but I don't care, whatever you want to do. She "Well than I guess I'd better get going." I responded by simply saying "ok, have a good day." That's it--no phone calls or communication since. I'm trying real hard to detach, because I just can't keep giving her full access to my heart just so she stomp on it daily. By the way, she went out last night, so I made sure to shut off the lights and sit infront of the fire and enjoy some quite time alone. She came back to the house to pick up the car and thought I had gone to bed--no more waiting up for her. She then called me (that's a first in a while, her actually calling me) to tell me she came and got the car and is at her place. All of this is progress, I think?
